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4 Month Check-Up

So today was Kinglsey's 4 month check-up and he did awesome! He was 26" long and weighed over 18lbs. Needless to say he's in the 90th percentile for height and weight...Lol! He got 3 shots and griped about it just a little bit. The nurse said, "Oh my gosh! That's his cry. It's so sweet. Now I feel even more terrible!" Seriously, this baby doesn't cry and when he does his cries are really sweet. Our doctor is absolutely obsessed with him and thinks he's the most adorable thing ever. She calls him her little football player because he's so freaking big. The same nurse that talked about his cries didn't believe us when she first came in and asked how old he was. She said, "Oh my! He's so big for 4 months!" Anyway, right after wards I stuffed him full of formula and Tylenol and here was the result:

Surprise!

So Beth, Dennis, and I threw Lindsey a surprise party which was an absolute success! He had no idea what-so-ever! We had a blast and stayed up entirely too late! Here's some pics...some, um yeah...don't ask! Lol!

Wordless Wednesday

Brotherly-Sisterly Love:

PPD

Okay, so if you read my posts and you've read the "Why God" one...well I figured out why I've been going so mental and it wasn't because I was PMSing. I have PPD. For those of you who don't know what PPD is...it's PostPartum Depression. This actually affects 60-80% of women and it doesn't always have to happen right after you have your baby (mine didn't). Unfortunately, mine was triggered months later by the excessive amount of stress I've been under due to financial difficulties and by my first post menstrual cycle. So if anyone reading this might know someone who thinks that they have this...they need to get help immediately! It's very serious! It can not be treated w/out medication or w/out help from a therapist - at least that's what I've heard so far.

I just knew that there had to be more to my craziness...I've been so sad and depressed and I kept considering running away from the people who love and need me the most. I couldn't concentrate on anything. I couldn't sleep. I would have these "out of body" experiences where I would freak out say the most evil things and when I came back to I would feel so awful for what I had just said and couldn't believe the words that had just came out of my mouth. At work I would find myself taking frequent rest room breaks just to cry. But the one that got to me the most was there have been times where I was really aggressive to my children and I've had to walk away or put them in a different room and close the door because I was afraid I would hurt them.

So to anyone that has been affected by actions...I am truly, deeply sorry and I'm currently in the process of seeking medical attention. Things will get better soon...I just know they will. They have to. I love you all.

Wordless Wednesday

Lyrics to Souvenirs by Midnight Movies. (I <3 this song!)

I once gave pieces from a shattered heart that kept falling
until it fell apart into tokens. Souvenirs.
I bid you farewell with...
imagining they were yours.

In their place grew bombs like a pressure mine,
like a filter built into the rind.
Cause after all no one has ventured beyond,
and what's beyond belongs to only one.

He's waiting patiently inside the rind to see what he'll find.

Like a stubborn little baby boy,
at times it seems as if he's got me by the hand
pulling me along more sure than I am.
So determined, so sure what he will find.

And we're running like children.
I'm trying to keep up, don't let go.
Like children. Like children.

Our footsteps begin to draw away,
like pulling to and from ourselves as we evolve.
We warp and swell and bend. I want to recoil.

Like children.

Where'd you go? Where are you?
Endless prints in the dust.
Come back.
Stay.

Wait up and walk with me a ways.

Farewell for now.

Why God?

Do I have to have a period? Okay, so I actually do know the answer to that...but really...Why? They're awful! This is the first in about a year and I seriously just want to curl up n' die. Heating pad...extra strength Tylenol...Where are you? I don't remember cramps being this painful. Ouch! And why is it so heavy??? And why am I SUPER emotional??? One minute I feel like the crazy Chrisitian lady off Wife Swap that goes mental and the next I'm a freaking water fall. Geeze.

Happy Mother's Day from My Luv:

Just because...

I'm such a wonderful Mother & Wife... :)

Dang! Look at those chops...

Happy Birthday Amanda!

One down and seven more to go:

What is my Birthday?

I am 27.60 age in years.
I am 331 age in months.
I am 1,439 age in weeks.
I am 10,076 age in days.
I am 241,817 age in hours.
I am 14,509,027 age in minutes.
I am 87,054,159,708 age in milli seconds.
I was born on a Tuesday.

Wordless Wednesday

I HATE MAY! MAY MAY GO AWAY, COME AGAIN ANOTHER DAY!

May 2nd - Dave
May 3rd - Amanda's Birthday
May 9th - Jill's Birthday
May 10th - Mother's Day (Keep in mind I have a mother, a step-mother, and a mother-in-law)
May 13th - Mom's Birthday
May 19th - Lindsey's Birthday
May 20th - Leanne's Birthday
May 23rd - Dad's Birthday
May 24th - Allison's pool party for her Birthday (No way in hell am I ever getting into a bathing suit again...not even for a millions dollars)
May 25th - Memorial Day & Candice's B-day
May 27th - Brenda's Birthday
May 30th - Jes' Birthday
May 31st - Sarah's Birthday